“It is an amazing thing to watch people laugh, the way it sort of takes them over. Sometimes they really do struggle with it … so I wonder what it is and where it comes from, and I wonder what it expends out of your system, so that you have to do it till you’re done, like crying in a way, I suppose, except that laughter is much more easily spent.”
― Marilynne Robinson, Gilead
Dear god, I love Stefan.
Where the hell did the time go? It’s honestly hard to believe I’m three years out of high school and seven months away from being 21. Nothing horrifies me more than how much time has speed up since I graduated high school. I’m not ready to start growing up, but it’s happening anyways… And I hate it.
I hate being broke and working my ass off for minimum wage so I can pay my rent. It really cuts into my alcohol and tobacco habits.
I hate that instead of going to friends’ houses and hanging out, we all “do lunch” now. It’s pretentious, and when was the last time you had a blast “doing lunch”?
I hate being stressed about bills and taxes and other such financial issues. That shit gives you grey hairs.
I hate that I literally cannot get out the door of my apartment without a cup of coffee.
I hate eating tv dinners by myself in my room. Growing up and moving away means no more family dinners. Which means my eating habits are that of a homeless person. Which means sometimes I’m so fat I can’t look at myself in the mirror, and sometimes I have to go weeks on a loaf of bread and a jar of peanut butter.
I hate that I can’t enjoy Nickelodeon or Disney Channel shows anymore.
I hate that I can’t go for a drive at 11pm on a Tuesday night just for the hell of it because I’m too poor, I don’t have access to a car, or I’m too busy with real life things.
I hate real life. Why must we spend 18 years preparing children for it? No amount of homework or summer jobs can prepare you for the real world, it will knock you on your ass. So just live in ignorant bliss for a long as you can, kids!
I’ll always be a kid at heart, but there’s no avoiding adulthood. One day you wake up, and it hits you like a train. You’re 20, your teenage years are over, your diary has been replaced with a practical day planner, and the most exciting facebook status you can come up with is “found a great new radio station for the drive to work!”
So clearly, growing up can suck a fat one.
“It is the hour to be drunken! To escape being the martyred slaves of time, be ceaselessly drunk.”
— Charles Baudelaire
I want to party with Hoda, Kathie Lee, and an ungodly amount of Franzia boxed wine.
John Mayer (via johnmayersays)
I still love him despite the terrible things he says.
1x04 “Eye Of The Beholder”
They’re all so wittle!! Who knew Emma would grow up to be a babe, and Toby seriously has the prettiest eyelashes I have ever seen haha. I miss them and everything about G1.
Writing eleven pages in one day about a topic that just barely sparks my interest is exactly why I hate being in school. If I have to write one more word about why the United States should start implementing widespread use of renewable energy sources, I think my head is going to explode.
…6 more pages to go.
Brain=FRIED.
This is why I love HIMYM.
Today I’ve been extremely stressed and running behind from the moment I woke up. I have a thousand things to do this week for my classes on top of the fact that my rent is due on the first and I still have to make another $100 somehow. That means I’m tutoring the hell out of Mt. Pleasant right now trying to make money. That mixed with all of my own homework is literally killing me today.
Then, it was like divine intervention. I was sitting at my computer writing two papers at once (don’t ask me how I do it, because I’m not even sure at this point) with my iTunes on shuffle. Just when I finally felt completely dejected and rested my head on the table in an attempt to gather myself, Konstantine by Something Corporate started playing. It’s my favorite song of all time, and although it’s a love song and has nothing to do with being a stressed, poor, and exhausted college student, it was exactly what I needed to hear to lift my spirits. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: Andrew McMahon, you always come through for me when I need you.
My friend Stacy got me thinking about and looking for signs from the universe a while ago. I’m pretty sure that was one. I’m hoping the universe is trying to tell me that despite all that’s bringing me down, there’s a whole lot more out there to bring me back up when I need it.
This is one of my new favorite Degrassi Tumblrs. Also, where can I purchase Craig’s CD?
(Source: littledegrassithings)
